My Job and The Lord

So I'm sitting at my desk... I've got some time to kill before 5. It's so wonderful having an 8-5 job. This week has been an emotional week for me. I know it has to be due to it being my lovely time of the month, but I believe there's more to it. I've got a friend (a guy of course) who has been playing with my emotions but he doesn't know it. I'm a big girl, and I can deal with it (with God's help of course), but it's got me thinking.

I like my job, and I'm thankful for it, but there's got to be something more. My true desire is to be a wife and mother and involved in ministry in some way, but that door hasn't been opened at this time. I'm completely ok with where God has me in life, but I know there's gotta be something more. Kinda like that country song that I hate. There's gotta be something more, more than this... something like that.

I see how the Lord has me where I'm at, and that excites me. But I want more. I know that i"m here to witness to the people in my office. I'm here to work and pay off my debt so that if and when the Lord calls me to move overseas, (like my hearts desire) I'll be ready. But it's so tough. I wanna be serving God full time. And I know that I can be in my job... but again, I know there's more to it. I've just gotta be patient and wait on the Lord's timing. It sucks though.

Oh, and I HATE being a girl. Girls are emotional and analyze EVERYTHING! I love the way God made me, but I wish I could figure things out better. *sigh*