It's been forever since I wrote on this thing. If you read this e-mail that I wrote some friends this morning, you'll see why. It kinda shows where I'm at. It's not always easy to write about the bad stuff.

so I've been thinking about how much I don't like my job. just the stress and crap that goes on. the ways that people are treated around the office... stuff like that.
and i've been thinking about how my dream job has always been to be in the ministry. and with where my walk with Christ is right now... I'm in no mindset to be in ministry. so it makes me want to do better... to change my attitude about God and what He's been up to in my life. I've always known that He's at work, but I've wanted nothing to do with it at times.
so needless to say... i've been reminded that if my dream job... life goal is to be in ministry in some way... I've got to be preparing for it where i'm at right now. I do want to get out of this job... i don't know when... but eventually. and if i want my next job to be doing ministry... i've got to get right with Christ. (i feel like i'm saying something that my aunt would say and she's very legalistic.) BUT... I know that what i've been going through is a time of growth... something that i've needed to go through to see how much i really need CHRIST. and it's a choice of mine to allow myself to stay here... or I can move.... closer to Christ preferably...
That's where I'm at. Just wanted to share!
Thanks for listening.